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Life Updates, Accountability & Asking for Help

It’s been a while since I’ve sat down to write here—or even chatted with you over on the podcast. Life has been busy these past few months, and I wanted to take a moment to catch up with you all. As you know, I value honesty and vulnerability, so here goes.

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Starting My New Job

I’m now seven weeks into my new role—and officially living the London commute, telco world, and corporate life. It’s been a big adjustment, especially coming from jobs in the trendy fitness and wellness space. Moving into tech has been… different, to say the least.

There’s been new jargon to learn, new people to meet, and the challenge of adapting to a much bigger, global business. It’s been exhilarating, scary, emotional, enjoyable—and yes, fun (which I think matters most).

I’ve already made some great connections and learned a lot about how a true corporate business operates (and how it differs from those that only pretend to be “corpo”). The commute itself can be draining—especially when the UK rail system does its usual thing—but overall, I’m really enjoying it. With busy periods like new phone launches and Black Friday around the corner, I’m excited to keep learning and growing in this new chapter.

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Personal Life & Accountability

Alongside work, I’ve been navigating personal challenges—from relationships to my recovery journey. Honestly, one thing I’ve been missing lately is accountability. Not in the sense of piling pressure on myself, but in making sure I continue showing up for me—learning from mistakes (or “lessons”), and not neglecting the inner work.

I’ve said this before, but it’s worth repeating: if we don’t hold ourselves accountable, we can’t expect family or friends to do it for us. Sometimes, we need to step up, show up, and be our own number-one fan.

That said, I do have an incredible support system. I’ve been opening up more about my journey and past struggles, and I want to take a moment to say thank you. To my family, my friends, and even to you—my readers and listeners—who’ve supported Pepetoe since the beginning. You’ve all seen me through some very dark moments, and I appreciate you more than words can express.

Recovery, especially from something like an eating disorder, takes a whole village. I know how hard it can be to help someone like me through it—but you all do, in big and small ways, and it keeps me going.

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On Vulnerability

I know this got a little deep, but it’s important to acknowledge. Being vulnerable is scary. It’s scary to let your guard down with people you love. It’s scary to risk feeling like a “burden.” But I think more of us feel this than we realize.

You don’t need a huge trauma to pull away from people—sometimes life itself is enough. In my 22 years, I’ve faced plenty of tough moments, but I refuse to let them define me. Some days are almost unbearable, but I take it one day at a time. And so can you.

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Please, Ask for Help

If there’s one takeaway from this post (and the podcast episode), it’s this: please, ask for help when you need it.

It doesn’t matter whether you’re going through a massive crisis or just feeling low—both are valid. Don’t downplay your struggles. Don’t invalidate your own emotions. Whether you need a hug, a chat, or a proper plan of action, your loved ones will be there.

It took me years to understand this, but nothing bad happens when you ask for help. It’s vulnerable, yes. It’s scary, yes. But it can also change everything. Sometimes, it starts with just one simple question:

“Can we talk?”

And on that super overused saying—the world is your oyster—let me remind you of this: a pearl only forms when an oyster is in trouble. Just like that, some of the most beautiful, valuable parts of us are created when we’re struggling or afraid. So, next time you’re the one who feels stuck, scared, or in trouble, remember: asking for help doesn’t make you weak. It’s exactly what helps you create your pearl.

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If you want to dive deeper into this conversation, give the latest episode of The Pepetoe Podcast a listen—it’s raw, real, and vulnerable (so take it with a pinch of salt).

🎧 Available now on Spotify & Apple Podcasts—just search “The Pepetoe Podcast.”